“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.: –Romans 8:18
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” –Romans 8:28
Living in God’s plan. I know that everything we have gone through has all been in God’s plan for us…. for me. And I am constantly reminding myself that this is all happening on purpose.
This is not easy. This life that we live… it’s not easy. It is not something that I clap for and jump for and hope that all people can experience. It’s not. God’s love and strength and joy… absolutely! But this life… no. I don’t wish this on anyone. To see your baby struggle on a daily basis… to watch your baby struggle to survive, to watch them fight for life, to never know when this life will end, to never know or fully understand why we have been chosen to live this life but trusting in God that He knows what He is doing and trusting in God that everything will be OKAY …. *deep dramatic sigh*
I know that our son will survive this. I know this. I know this because I feel it. I know this because He has shown me this. I know this because it is what He has revealed to me. God’s Will and His plan…. are aligned with my prayers. I know this. And I am so grateful.
And because of that I know that the suffering we have endured is going to lead to God’s Glory. All that Matthew has endured… all that our family has gone through will lead to God receiving His Glory. I am so thankful for that. I have no idea how the road is or what it looks like up ahead, I just know where it ends… in His Kingdom.