So what happens when mama is done??
Who takes over for mama? Daddy?? lol.
I think I have reached a point in this journey that I am really really done. I am soooooo over all of this.
I am ready to go back to normal.
I am so ready to go back to the normal that we had always known.
I am so ready to go back to work.
I am so ready to have a paycheck and pay bills.
I am so ready to go grocery shopping without having a budget.
I am so ready to go to Target or Kohl’s and shop because I feel like it.
I am so ready to go out to eat because I just don’t feel like cooking tonight.
I am so ready to afford a steak and cook on my bbq grill.
I am so ready to buy a bottle of wine because I used to drink it aalllll the time.
I am so ready to take my girls to dance class and be the dance mom I used to be.
I am so ready to take my baby’s to the park and to the gym so they can have social skills with kids other than their siblings.
I am so ready to go to church without worry of germs, or sickness or tubes being pulled out. I am so ready to get back to working in and for the church.
I am just so ready for all of this to be over with….
Am I blessed? Yes! Am I grateful? Yes! Am I thankful that we are all still alive and kicking? Yes! But do I want this? No. Do I want our lives to be like this? No. Do I want to be the example? No…. but I will.
I will keep going. I will keep living. I will keep fighting. I will keep moving and I will get through this….
I am just sooooooo ready for this to be done.