2016, December 2016

#2016bestnine

  And here is MY 2016 Best Nine photos on Instagram. 2016 reeeeeally sucked as it was happening. As we struggled through every single poopy day just to breathe...just to make it to the next day... *sigh* But now that it's over, I kinda loved it. I loved it because of what my son has… Continue reading #2016bestnine

2016

Why Me??

She Believed She Could Believe

Why me?

NOVEMBER 14, 2014

…… I sit on my couch right now..I look around my living room. My four month old daughter asleep next to me. My four year plays with her toys on the floor in front of me.. my three oldest girls (13 yr old, 12yr old, 7yr old) are eating an after school snack in the kitchen.

Why me?

I read an article about a man who lost his wife from complications of child birth. She delivered at the same hospital I did. Her son was rushed to the NICU. ..same NICU my son is in now. The article shows a father singing to his son and playing the guitar. That baby boy died yesterday… just a couple feet away from my son…. . …….

After watching the video… crying my eyes out..I realized I was there. At that moment. . I was there.

I thought…

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2016, December 2016

26 Pounds 

Before Matthew was born, we were told that the magic number we need to pray for is 22. He needs to get to the minimum weight of 22 pounds to be eligible for a kidney transplant.It was highly unlikely that he would survive anything from pregnancy to NICU to after NICU... but we still had… Continue reading 26 Pounds 

2016, December 2016

Just When I thought….

So.... just when I thought I was done with "doing other things" .... I have been getting text messages and phone calls to make appearances and give interviews and be a part of more events and fundraisers. Seriously?!?! I had my mind made up. I had my mind set on deleting facebook... which I already… Continue reading Just When I thought….

2016

Flashbacks & Triggers

Does anyone else get flashbacks? Does anyone else get dreams or nightmares that feel so real, it feels like you are going through it all over again? Has anyone else woken up in the middle of the night or forced yourself out of a daydream because you just can't take what you are seeing or… Continue reading Flashbacks & Triggers