2018

It was pain that saved my life

"It was pain that saved your life." - Lysa Terkeurst  I heard this quote today from author and speaker Lysa Terkeurst. She was featured on the podcast for Focus on the Family. It was a two part series about her new book 'It Wasn't Supposed To Be This Way'. I have not yet read this… Continue reading It was pain that saved my life

2018

The Mask

Remove the mask... live your true self... someone  told me this and I just had to write about it. Because.... this is how I have been living my life. With a mask on. A smiley mask that makes me look like I am just getting through it all with a great attitude, no worry and… Continue reading The Mask

2018

It will never get easier

It’s been 4 years and this day has never gotten easier to reminisce about. I remember hearing the alarms going off.. staff rushing in.. the Nurse Practitioner coming straight towards me and sitting me down sternly. The concern on the NICU nurses face.. she was looking at me and shaking her head as if saying,… Continue reading It will never get easier

2018

The greatest moment I trusted God

I have written before about when I had to give my son back to God. Matthew was only three months old and nothing was working to keep him alive. The machines stopped working, his surgical incisions broke and burst, the dialysis catheter was not working, his lungs were slowly being filled with fluid and his… Continue reading The greatest moment I trusted God

2018

The NICU- Four Years Later

The NICU is a place of miracles. The NICU is a place of wonder. It is one of the most frightening places anyone can ever walk into. From beeping alarms, monitors sounding off and babies crying... every day is different. Every NICU experience is unique. There is not one story that is the same. When… Continue reading The NICU- Four Years Later