Remove the mask... live your true self... someone told me this and I just had to write about it. Because.... this is how I have been living my life. With a mask on. A smiley mask that makes me look like I am just getting through it all with a great attitude, no worry and… Continue reading The Mask
It’s been 4 years and this day has never gotten easier to reminisce about. I remember hearing the alarms going off.. staff rushing in.. the Nurse Practitioner coming straight towards me and sitting me down sternly. The concern on the NICU nurses face.. she was looking at me and shaking her head as if saying,… Continue reading It will never get easier part two
In John 11, The death of Lazarus is told. Lazarus was Mary and Martha's brother who had fallen very sick. Lazarus died and Jesus went to him days after he had already been dead. Mary and Martha were mourning his death and had been sobbing upon Jesus' arrival. John 11:32-33 says: (32)"Then, when Mary came… Continue reading Jesus Wept.
I have written before about when I had to give my son back to God. Matthew was only three months old and nothing was working to keep him alive. The machines stopped working, his surgical incisions broke and burst, the dialysis catheter was not working, his lungs were slowly being filled with fluid and his… Continue reading The greatest moment I trusted God
Oh, how I am blessed. December 2013- we found out we were pregnant. Having four girls, having an well established career, a great marriage, amazing church life, finances far exceeding what we planned... why not try for a boy?! Early March 2014- I was 15 weeks along. At our monthly OB appointment, we found out… Continue reading Blessed.